let's talk about the Hunger Games.

Alrighty. I love me some Hunger Games. Seriously, maybe the best series I've ever read. Clearly I needed some midnight premiere action so I dragged Zac and our friends John and Whitney along with me and they weren't quite as enthusiastic as me... This picture pretty much sums up how they felt about it. The creepy hand is Zachary. 

We were in maybe the weirdest theater group of people ever. Nobody had any sense of humor at all, which I find fairly imperative in a large group of people sitting in close proximity for hours on end. One girl got up in front of everyone and said "May I have your attention please!" so everyone shuts up and looks at her thinking something exciting was about to happen and then she just goes "May the odds be ever in your favor" and scampers away... Whatever, do your own thing. If you want to be silly, do it. But everyone just STARED. and STARED. No reaction whatsoever. So John yells "TEAM JACOB!" just to be dumb and still NOTHING. Lame-o's. No giggles later either when John asked "Soooo, this is Harry Potter 8, right?" in the most convincing voice. 

Then the movie started. And at first I was really upset. That filming really got to me and I was so afraid that the whole movie would be like that, luckily once the reaping was over I was good to go. I'll just make a few important points of how I felt about the movie.... *SPOILER ALERT*

>I feel like the cast was absolutely PERFECT. I loved Peeta & Katniss' chemistry! I die!
>Watching the movie, I was really bugged about how they completely eliminated Madge and the Mockingjay pin was given (back) to her by Prim but the more I sit on it, the more I'm ok with how they changed it. I understand the story needed to fit into a theatrical timeline. I'm still not sure about how I feel on the amount of Foxface we saw. Too little? Maybe.
>What was with the careers being all flirty and snuggley?! There is no hint of romance in the book between them and I was bugged that they felt the need to add that
>Is it weird that I found Seneca Crane super attractive? {EDITED: at first I wrote Caesar Flickerman, and I love Stanley Tucci and all but I find him more funny than attractive. Sorry man!}
>Haymitch schmoozing for the sponsors was weirdly touching. I love that they showed his effort to be "a part of the team"
>I have a big ol' girl crush on Elizabeth Banks. Seriously. Effie was perfection.
>I could have done with a lot more of the romance aspect between Peeta and Katniss. I wouldn't change the movie now that I have seen it, but I was hoping for more. I don't think Haymitch would have thought that was acceptable. And where was the stew!?
>Last one, the braid touch at the end when Katniss is counting. I. DIED. Peeta was so GOOD. I just want to scream I can't even handle it. And he didn't want to forget!!! Who can blame him?! Ugh. Just.... Love. Love it so much.

What were your thoughts? Team Peeta or Gale? Did it meet all of your expectations? 

I must apologize.

You guys.

 Seriously.

 I feel like I have lost all concept of what this little blog is supposed to be. I kind of dread thinking of things to blog about. I whine a LOT on here. I talk in a weird, distant narrative voice. Welp, I'm done with that. I need to be real on here. I will probably still post whiney things, but in a more real way. I feel like especially in that last post about my photos I used real emotions but edited the way I presented them and I don't like that. This blog is about me (& that handsome husband of mine) and our real life. I need to rediscover my "blog voice". Ready? Go. 

keepin' it real.

Insecurities.

I like to consider myself a fairly confident person. Except in one area of my life. My photos. I adore taking photos and my ultimate goal is to be able to make my name known as a photographer but I am in constant doubt about my abilities. Is this normal? I don't even know. As I sat in front of my computer for hours while editing my last shoot (an absolutely gorgeous wedding in Utah) I was the most stressed I have felt in a very long time. I would edit a photo, feel good about it, and then instantly want to delete it and start all over. WHY?! Where does this fear come from? Now that I have sent the disc out to the newlyweds I can look at them and feel comfortable knowing that they like them but I still have that nagging in the back of my mind. Ugh. Anyways, enough for now. Just some thoughts. I know someday I will be able to feel comfortable with my work I just need to keep working hard & taking as many photos as I possibly can! If you'd like to see my latest work, you can find a small album here.